Christmas!

It all started when I woke up at six o'clock. 

I went into the as we call it, "New Room."

I saw the presents from santa. 

That is the glorious sight I saw. :) 

Trust me, it looked WAY better in person.

Presents stacked behind the tree, under the piano, EVERYWHERE.

Here are a few things I was so blessed to receive...

Mustache Glasses...

This snowboard..

Kindle Fire.. <3

Well actually funny story, I got two of them. :) One from my parents and one from my boyfriend. I guess I am just super lucky! :)

I got SO many other amazing presents. I loved spending Christmas with my loved ones and I am such a blessed girl. I more than LOVED Christmas. And I'm so exccited for New Years and for everything to come! :)

Snowboarding

So, I have never been a big fan of snowboarding. I have always thought it was cool. I always got jealous of everyone who always went when I was younger. I have only went once before when I was about ten with some of my brothers. Do I even remember it? No. (Due to many, many concussions..) Anyways, since I moved to Cedar I have met different people and so on. It so happens that two of my very best friends, Jordan and Curtis, are snowboard-a-holics. You may not think there is such a thing but trust me, there is. Every movie they want to watch when it isn't snowboarding season is about snowboarding. When it is the season, I don't see them. They pretty much live on the mountain. They live and breathe snowboarding. It isn't bad to love something. So I thought why not? It sounds so fun and I love trying new things. :) So for my birthday I decided I would go and go with some people that I love...

December 3rd: I went snowboarding for let's just say my first time since ten year olds are losers... Well, I was anyways. Everyone said the weather was horrible. They said I probably wouldn't have fun and that I probably wouldn't do good at all. Did that stop me from being super excited? Nope. I went and let me tell you.. I had a BLAST. The weather was bad, well so they say. But I was SOOO warm and cozy and I got the hang of things really fast. Unlike, Larena.. cough, cough. Hahahaha kidding! But I thought it was the funnest thing ever and falling down didn't even hurt! :) 

December 10th: I had so much fun last time that I couldn't wait to go again! So of course on my next day off of work, I went! Which was earlier today. :) The weather was the best that it could get, so they say again.. The best day for riding and so on. Did not go so well for me this time though.. It's like I forgot everything I learned the time before. I fell, I fell a lot. And this time it hurt. It hurt, a lot. There was no pow. It was just hard snow. I bent my arms when I fell in ways I couldn't even imagine. I think I actually pulled muscles in both arms. I bruised my tailbone and the side of my hip. I got hurt. (Which is not  unlikely for me.) I got some new snowboard boots and they happened to be too small for my board. So I had to rent a board. My toes got squished like no other. The sun was bright and it was hot out. Of course, I got sunburned. I had a headache. 

But despite ALL of that. I loved it. I learned new things. I pushed myself. I am gaining new muscle. I am being active. I am at peace when I am there. I found a new sport that I love. And I can't wait to keep going!!

Here are some pictures... :) 

Best friend. :)

 

Boyfriend. :)

Birthday :)

So here i am on a Sunday being bored. Imagine that? Anyways, I am so happy for one reason mainly.. My birthday. It is in two weeks to the day.

I am SOOOooOoOo excited.

 I love birthdays!

I love myself.

So of course I am going to love my own birthday. And I have been counting down for the past year so yes, two weeks seems like no time! :) Ahhh! I just want want want so many things. Something I am super excited about is my birthday is on a Sunday! Now, usually I would hate that. Like seriously, HATE. But not this year. This year I am so happy about it and only for one reason. That reason is.... My family will all be going to church together. At the same time. In the same place! Together. You might be thinking.. no big deal. But it is such a big deal. There are two parents, ten kids, six in-laws, and five grandchildren. That comes to a total of 23 people that have to be at one place. It's hard. So i am sooo happy about it and that's all I can think about. Well besides Thanksgiving. ;)

happy holidays. :)

As you should know. It is almost halloween. :) I love the idea of this. I love this. I LOVE Holidays. :) They are just so happy and fun. Last night there was a big Halloween dance. A lot of scandalous costumes were worn but guess what... I did not even care! (Even though i did want to throw up) I was just so happy and having fun. I love dressing up! It's fun and silly. :) Next one is Thanksgiving! I can not wait! There is always so much food. It makes my stomach happy and my heart. There is family and food and what else could I possibly want?! :) Then it is MMMYYY birthday. I am counting down. I have been since my last birthday! And let me tell you.. There is ONLY 36 yes i said that.. 36 DAYS TIL MY BIRTHDAY. And a short 21 days after that it is CHRISTMAS! I have so much to love about life such as holidays. Isn't it great. Well here is some from the Halloween party last night. Oh and don't even get me started on how excited i am to go Trick or Treating. :) Happy Holidays!! 

:)

I few weeks ago i was feeling down. I didn't feel like i was doing anything with my life. So the baby that i am asked my father for a blessing. We talked a long while and then he gave me one. It was great and said just what i needed to hear. My prayers have been answered. I am loving my life again. All my friends are back for school and i actually have a life. I realized work isn't that bad. I am just HAPPY. I love that. :) Prayers and the priesthood rock, that is all. I feel so blessed and grateful and ahh i love it! :) 

Feelin.

I feel scared. Not like the scared where I am alone in the dark by myself scared, which happens to be my fear. I feel nervous. Not the kind where I am giving a big speech in front of everyone nervous. I feel annoyed. Not the annoyed where a two year old little kid is saying my name millions of times a second annoyed. I feel tired. Not the I just ran a ten mile marathon tired. I feel sick. Not the in the hospital for days kind of sick. I feel impatient. Not the I want summer to start already kind of impatient, or is it? I feel sad. Not the my very close loved one just died kind of sad. 

This is all the feelings that I am feeling if I am thinking negatively. I feel so many different emotions every single day. And yes I am feeling all those emotions for real but more IMPORTANTLY...

I feel excited. The kind of excited you get when your boyfriend has lived in a different town the whole summer and is moving back in four days kind of excited. I feel blessed. The kind of blessed you feel when you know that you can not have a better family in the world. I feel grateful. The kind of grateful you feel when you have a good job when the economy is being rough. I feel determined. The kind of determined that you feel when you want something so badly that you are making sure you are doing everything you can to get to that point you need to be at. I feel loved. The kind of love you feel when you are so rich with loved ones around you. I feel beyond excited. The kind of beyond excited you feel when you know in about two weeks you will be in Fish Lake with your whole family. 

Rambling.

So it's like 9:30 and i'm thinking where has my day gone? It was my day off.. Did i do anything exciting? No. Did i do anything at all? Not really. I woke up VERY late. I went to Taco Bell. I layed out in the sun. Why do i do that? I don't know because my skin surely doesn't change from that awkward white color. I did some laundry. I cleaned my room a little and i have been reading.

 I started and finished a book in one day. That book that i saw at the mall probably a month or two ago called Heaven Is For Real. Well Lynden surprised me with it last night! I was pretty excited. I read the whole thing today and i loved it. It was about Heaven and what would you want to learn about more than to learn about that? Well i can't think of anything. 

There have been so many things on my mind today.. My family, people getting married, highschool friends, new friends i have now, the church, the temple, school, work, kids and just everything. It's so crazy how fast i'm growing up or probably in better words time is gowing by so fast! I will turn twenty this year, one of my best friends is getting married in a little over a month, all my older siblings are married, Kasdan (my little brother) is now an adult as of yesterday. He will be going on a mission in just a year! It's so crazy how things have changed. I love it though! 

I am just rambling on and don't really even know if this will make sense at all. Probably not. I just feel like writing down my thoughts and this is what i've got. :)

Half Birthday. :)

July 28th was the day. :)

This day is Lynden Kaid Sudweeks half birthday! 

Now i have never been one to celebrate half birthdays BUT i have always wanted to.

This was my perfect chance and so i just snatched it right up! 

It so happened that i had this day off of work and the plan was for Lynden to come see me. Unfortunately he worked. He worked not only one shift that day but he worked a double. He had Friday off though so he decided he would come after he got off work. Which was at One in the a.m. Not cool. But i decided since i had the day off that i would just get everything ready and surprise him when he got there. (He had no idea that i was doing this.. i think) hahah. So I cleaned a ton. Got dressed and whatnot and went off to good ol' Walmart. :) I got all his gifts and some decorations and then went to DQ and got a cake. :) I decorated and things and i just had so much fun! :) I probably liked it more than he did! But here are a few pictures of it...

This was the cake. It was just regular. I didn't really have enough time to cut it in half or right half on it or anything. But it was delicious no matter what. :)

The Table. It had half confetti and half presents. I didn't take any pictures before so that's why it's all messy and stuff. :)

For his presents i did half a dozen good times together. :)

The party room. :) Hahaha there were half balloons filled and half not. Half banners. Half of lots of things! 

There are more pictures but it's a pain loading them onto my computer from my ipod. This was so much fun though! :)) Also we went to Denny's later with Brent, a friend of ours. YUMM! :)

Sent from Heaven. :)

Today there was a gift sent from Heaven to my brother Ruskan and his wife Kami. :) A little blessing with the name of Kloee Marie Felshaw. She was born weighing five pounds and eleven ounces. She is just a tiny thing and was thirteen days early. Thank goodness they started with her early because there were THREE knots in her cord. :/ If one tightened then she could have died. She is a little miracle baby! I love her so much already. I'm an aunt to number six now. :))

                                                            This is Kloee Marie Felshaw:

Isn't she darling?! :) <3

Now i must admit that i have been baby hungry from quite some time. Weird that i would rather have a baby then get married? Probably. But I LOOOOVVE kids. They are so cute and funny and i just love them! Here are some pictures of my other nieces and nephews. I love them all soooo much!!

Here is Weston Blake Felshaw:

Porsha Kandy Felshaw:

Ryker Dean Felshaw:

Dylan Bryant Felshaw:

And last but surely not least.. Sophi Nicole Felshaw:

She was born sleeping.

R.I.P, foreverly missed..

I know this was a lot of pictures. But these kids mean the world to me! I love them all so much and would do anything for them. :) They are my blessing for now until the time comes to have my own.

         

Families are forever. :)

I love my family. All my family was in Mesquite on Sunday for my brother Brogan's birthday party and then we were all in Mesquite yesterday to help Kasdan with his eagle project. Now it may not sound like a big deal. But it is... It's kinda hard to get everyone together. Two parents. Ten Kids. Six spouses. Four grandkids. Twenty Two people everytime all my family is together. That is if we don't invite friends. And that is a lot of people which is a lot of birthdays. So we get together quite often. I love how big my family is and i am sooooo blessed to have them. I am glad we are so close. My family rocks. :)

stay positive.

Today has been great! A much needed day. I went to work this morning and got home and decided i am just gonna have a day to myself. :) So i...

-layed outside on the hammock and read a book.
-painted my nails.
-did all my laundry.
-cleaned my room.
-downloaded all the harry potter movies.
-ate some arbys.

That is all so far. But sometimes it is nice to just have time to myself. Working six days a week has got the best of me. And so i am going to make the best of it. :) If there is one thing i have learned this summer it has been to stay positive. Life is good.

I miss..

High school actually. No one thinks they would ever say that. Well except me. I knew i would because i loved it. Everything about it. I miss going to girls camp and camp ruth. Oh, i just miss a lot of things. But i love my life and i am blessed now for learning things that i did while in highschool. :)

New. :))

Today i got a new favorite movie.
Today I went to the movie Theater with Lynden.
Today I saw this glorious movie that I could watch over and over again. :)

July.. the fourthish..

Sooooo last weekend might have been super great! :) Well it was.

On Thursday me and my friend boy Lynden went to Vegas to go to Warped Tour! Such a gooood time. It was also in the middle of Vegas.. in a parking lot. May i remind you that it IS summer... So yes, it was freakin hot! But still a wonderful time. After we went to Freemont street and we rode the zip line and just walked around and things. I saw Pee-Wee Herman and Brett Micheals hanging out.. only in Vegas. :) haha. Then we headed home!

Friday, we both had to work but after work Lynden came down to see me!

Saturday morning we went to Gunlock with my family and rode jet skii's. Half of us were jumping of rocks so later on there would be two people on jet skii's taking us across the lake. It so happens that I got picked up by my brother Brogan and Lynden got picked up by my brother in law Jordan. So Brogan and I were trying to splash them with our jet skii. Of course, something went wrong. Our jet skii wouldn't turn... which resulted in us running into them. Hit Lynden's leg and Jordan's kidney. Bet that felt great! :) Hahah. All i can say is i had a good time! Then we were headed off to Mesquite! We got there and took a short nap then filled up Water Ballons and went to the Bunkerville town water fight. :) It was a blast with Ehrin, Larena, Maleena and Lynden. :) We got soooaaakkeed! After we went to the Purple Fez and ate. :)

Sunday we went to church with my family and after went to Brogan and Shantelle's house. Shantelle (Brogan's wife) and Dylan (Brogan's son/ my nephew) were having a birthday party. My whole family was there and we made homemade pizza's. TONS of them. and just had a freakin party. Lynden and I left around nine and drove to Tropic, Utah or as most people know it as Bryce Canyon. Which is where Lynden is from. We got there at around two in the morning... We ran out of gas in Cedar at around eleven so we waited til midnight to gas up and then went on our way. We got there and went to sleep! I am so blessed to have Dorie, a lady who lives in Tropic to let me stay with her everytime I go there. :)

Monday.. I got woken up by a cannon being shot off. I swear it was right outside my window... Oh wait, it was. My friend Ryan Alvey is a firefighter there and they thought it would be funny to light it off right outside my window. I was still super tired and still dreamin so it scared me a little bit. Everyone woke up and got dressed and things and we went to the park. There were booths, talent shows, infaltables, games and just so much. We were there almost all day. We went back to Dories and ate and took a little nap. We woke up and went back to the park and ate dinner then went to the rodeo! :) After the rodeo we watched the fireworks and then headed back to Cedar. I had such a wonderful weekend with the ones i love most. :)) I would put pictures up to prove this all really happened but i can't find my stinkin camera chord. :/ Oh well! Next time.

New news..

Today i realized how much i suck at functioning without sleep. My family had a yard sale today... i made $3! Wahoooo. So obviously no one wants my stuff but it was so nice to get rid of five bags of shirts to D.I. :) Lots more room for new stuff. I have recently been really addicted to shopping. If i have money, i'll spend it. Nasty habit. :/ I am kind of trying to save my money.. It's hard.


Lynden will be coming tomorrow! :) :D I am sooo excited. I have missed him SO much. Haven't seen him in like five days. Ha i am pathetic. But i love this boy. 


Uhm.. MY LIFE ROCKS! That is all.

PMSing.

Sometimes i wonder why i am being so emotional.
Sometimes i wonder why i am crying over someone asking me a simple question.
Sometimes i wonder why i care what other people think.
Sometimes i wonder why i care how i look.
Sometimes i wonder why nothing is going how i want.
Sometimes i wonder why i have to feel loved.
Sometimes i wonder why i am not good enough.


Then i remember that i only feel like this one week out of a month. I remember that i am a girl.

Heaven Is Fo' Real.

I was at the mall the other day.. at barnes and noble. I came across a book and it was called "Heaven Is Fo' Real." I picked it up and looked at it. It was about a child. Then lately i have spent time with some little children. I love them so much! Someday my children will be the ish. :) Also, they will believe heaven is fo real too.

Crazy People

So you may or may not know that I live in Cedar City. I also happen to work at Costa Vida. It is very delicious! :) Anyways.. there are people that come in that aren't very nice even after i go waaaaayy out of my way and comfort zone to be nice to them. It really irritates me, to say the least. I can't even get a thank you? For real. It's not my fault that you come to a place where you know it isn't going to be cheap and then you get mad about the price. Don't eat so dang much then! I didn't make the prices. Yep. That is my rant for the day. So lesson for everyone to learn.. if you are in a bad mood, don't go out in public. Have a nice day. :)

Fresh Start.

So obviously i am new at this. I don't know how to make one of these because I am awkward and weird. But it's cool. I like looking at other peoples blogs. Does that make me a creep? I am most def. facebook stalking material... Which also remind me of the song.. "Do the creep" i think is what it's called by the lonely island.


Yeah, alright. Uhm well i am super grateful for the scriptures right now! I've never been way into reading them until recently. Hopefully i will finish the whole book of mormon and d&c before this summer is over. Wahooo for goals. :)


Also, i am extremely grateful for my very wonderful boyfriend who is just the sweetest and is a very grand example to me! :) And who knows why or how but he puts ip with my weirdness?

And... living in Cedar i have missed my family SOOO much. So i can't wait to see them again! But i am VERY grateful for my sister Sheena and Brother-In-Law Ryan who are newlyweds and letting me live with them for the summer. You would think that it's awkward, but it's not. So shout out to them! :) This is part of the family at their wedding!

I don't know how to end these? So peace! :)