Update..

Well things have been AWESOME. Of course. :) I have been a little sick and a lot tired lately. But I have just been relaxing and acting all cool. So last weekend was the best ever. Well not the best ever but it was pretty great! Well it all starts last Wednesday. I went and had my last meeting with my bishop. Since then I have been thee HAPPIESt girl evvverr. :) On Friday Lynden and I went out to dinner and then watched 'The Lucky One.' Which I thought was such a good movie. Mostly probably because Zac Efron is so freakin' hott in it! :) Then Saturday Lyn and I went to his hometown of Tropic, Utah which I love. :) We visited some of his family, unpacked some of his things, then went on a fourwheeler ride. We rode out to somewhere and went shooting. We shot his gun which does have a little bit of a kick haha. My arm could definitely tell you that! After that we drove the fourwheeler to Bryce Canyon. We hiked up and back down the whole thing. It was such a beautful day and the weather was PERFECT. :D On Sunday I went to church and then Lynden picked me up and we headed to St.George for Kami and Maleena's birthday party. It was so great seeing all the family and my dad told me some most excellent news that I am not going to share just yet! But I am excited for it to say the least! :D This week I have not done anything except eat, sleep and watch movies. Which I am perfectly okay with. Though I know I should be productive. Well that is what's new for now. :)

Loooove

This song has been stuck in my head for a good solid six days now. But I just read the lyrics and i loved them. And well i just adore love. :) It makes me happy! So here are the lyrics...

And I would do anything for love,

I'd run right into hell and back.

I would do anything for love,

I'll never lie to you and that's a fact.

But I'll never forget the way you feel right now, oh no, no way.

And I would do anything for love,

Oh I would do anything for love,

I would do anything for love,

But I won't do that,

No I won't do that.

And some days it don't come easy,

And some days it don't come hard,

Some days it don't come at all, and these are the days that never end.

And some nights you're breathing fire.

And some nights you're carved in ice.

Some nights you're like nothing I've ever seen before or will again.

And maybe I'm crazy.

Oh it's crazy and it's true.

I know you can save me, no one else can save me now but you.

As long as the planets are turning.

As long as the stars are burning.

As long as your dreams are coming true, you'd better believe it!

That I would do anything for love,

And I'll be there till the final act.

And I would do anything for love,

And I'll take the vow and seal a pact.

But I'll never forgive myself if we don't go all the way, tonight.

And I would do anything for love,

But I won't do that.

No, I won't do that!

I would do anything for love,

Anything you've been dreaming of,

But I just won't do that.

[x2]

[Solo]

And some days I pray for silence,

And some days I pray for soul,

Some days I just pray to the god of sex and drugs and rock 'n' roll!

And maybe I'm lonely,

That's all I'm qualified to be.

There's just one and only, one and only promise I can keep.

As long as the wheels are turning.

As long as the fires are burning.

As long as your prayers are coming true, you'd better believe it!

That I would do anything for love,

And you know it's true and that's a fact.

I would do anything for love,

And there'll never be no turning back.

But I'll never do it better than I do it with you, so long, so long.

And I would do anything for love,

Oh, I would do anything for love,

I would do anything for love,

But I won't do that.

No, no, no, I won't do.....

I would do anything for love.

Anything you've been dreaming of.

But I just won't do that!

[x3]

But I'll never stop dreaming of you,

Every night of my life.

No way.

And I would do anything for love.

But I won't do that.

No I won't do that.

[Girl]

Will you raise me up, will you help me down?

Will you get me right out of this God forsaken town?

Will you make it all a little less cold?

[Boy]

I can do that. Oh I can do that.

[Girl]

Will you cater to every fantasy I've got?

Will you hose me down with holy water, if I get too hot? Hot!

Will you take me places I've never known?

[Boy]

Now I can do that! Oh oh now, I can do that!

[Girl]

After awhile you'll forget everything.

It was a brief interlude

And a midsummer night's fling,

And you'll see that it's time to move on.

[Boy]

I won't do that. I won't do that.

[Girl}

I know the territory, I've been around,

It'll all turn to dust and will all fall down,

Sooner or later, you'll be screwing around.

[Boy]

I won't do that. No, I won't do that.

Anything for love,

Oh, I would do anything for love,

I would do anything for love,

But I won't do that.

No, I won't do that.

Story.

I don't usually tell stories like this but this story has came back into my mind at the least once a day since it happened. So here it is..

It was a Sunday morning and I was driving with my two best friends to Mesquite from Cedar. We were running late for my cousins baby blessing. Lynden and I took Larena to her home and then drove back out to Beaver Dam for the blessing. By the time we got there we were a good fifteen minutes late and had missed the blessing. We got there in time for the sacrament. Not right in time though.. we had to sit outside in the foyer. There was an old lady sitting across the hall just starring at us the whole time and I was pretty scared. Old people have been scarring me lately and i'm not sure why because I usually love them. But old people aren't the point of this. So, we were sitting there and I was just thinking about everything that I could jam into my little brain but my mind kept taking me back to this one thought. The thought was; "I want to see my family." 

So anyone who really knows me knows that I LOVE my family. They are my best friends and I would do anything for them. 

Well it so happens that all my brothers and sisters and in-laws and nieces and nephews were all inside the meeting already. I wanted to see them SO bad. I'm not exactly sure why. I wanted to see my nephews and nieces making silly faces. I wanted to see my parents looking at all their kids and grandchildren and just having the biggest smiles on their faces. I wanted to make jokes with my brothers and sisters. I wanted to know what they were doing. I wanted to be in that meeting soooo bad. I wanted more than anything to be with them at that moment. I started to cry. (Yes, I am aware that I am such a baby lately.) 

My mind started thinking a lot. I thought "I want to go in there but I can't." "Maybe one of them will come out here to go the bathroom and I will get to see them." "I just want to see them." Thoughts like this kept coming and coming. I was sad. I hated feeling so distant. I hated it so much.

Then I thought.....

 This is a ton like eternal life. What if I am the only one in my family to not able to make it to the Celestial Kingdom. What if they can only see me? What if they didn't wanna see me? What if this is how it feels. I know that if it was then I would feel like that. What if I couldn't see or talk to them all I want? And whenever I want? My thoughts were endless.

Right then I decided for the first time in my life that I would do whatever it takes to get there. I will go to the Celestial Kingdom. And I will love it. :) The end.