Summer :)

I'm not going to lie, I was really nervous for summer.

Lynden moved away along with fifty zillion other friends and I was moving into a new apartment and some other things. I was just nervous and didn't know how it would be. Well summer has been GREAT! 

Lynden visits once a week. :) Last week when he came we were at the Tiki Shack eating our shaved ice and were deciding what to do that day. I said I wanted a hedgehog. We found out where there were some for sell. Ten min. later we were off to Vegas to the Exotic Pet Store. A chunk of cash later. We were the proud parents of our little Rusko. We like to call her Rue for short though. :) Here is our baby girl...

Also, my roommate Diana has been SO great and such a wonderful friend to me. :) We do fun things! :) We blew glow in the dark bubbles and made glow in the dark chalk! We take many trips to the walmart, play games and just do whatever. Don't worry we always stay up til four in the am so that's my excuse for always looking like such a hott mess hahah.

Also, i have went to Mesquite a lot more this summer and have spent time with my lovely family and some of my best friends! 

We went to the river! I can't even begin to tell you how much I have missed that place! :) It was SOO much fun and I can not wait to go back! 

This summer has already given me so many great memories and i know it will only get better! 

P.S super big news! Kasdan got his mission call and is going to Spokane, Washington! He is going to be SUCH a wonderful missionary and I will miss him SO much. :)

My life rocks so much. Like really.

Day One.

So I decided I am going to do a 30 day blog challenge since well I have time now! Like too much time.. so here it goes!

DAY ONE:

Post a picture of yourself and go ahead and introduce yourself!

So here is a picture of me..

I chose this picture because I kind of feel like it describes me as well as shows you what I look like.

Introduction:

Hi, my name is Sasha Felshaw. I am a girl. I am twenty years old. I belong to the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints and freakin' love it! I have a big family; two parents, five brothers, four sisters, three sister in-laws, three brother in-laws, three nephews, four nieces and four babies on the way! :) I looove my family more than anything in this world! I am taken, sorry boys. ;) I have been dating Lynden for a year and a half and I am totally crazy about him. I live in Cedar City, Utah. I am from Mesquite, Nevada. I have blonde hair, blue eyes, white skin, 5'3" and am a slim 105 pounds. I love anything and anyone that can make me laugh! I have been told a lot lately that I just have comebacks like crazy. So don't mess with me hahaha kidding. I work at Costa Vida. I love to have fun and do anything crazy. I am so weird. Like really. You might think I am weird but then really get to know me and then what you thought before was an understatement. I love outdoor things. I love indoor things. I love my friends. I don't like sour cream, mustard, obnoxiously loud girls, drugs, 2in1 shampoo and conditioner, bad attitudes, anything with the feel of velvet, thinking of velvet, and mean people. I love to travel. I love jokes. I love spending time with loved ones. I love feeling important. I love compliments.  I just life. That is pretty much all that I can think of! :)

Day one is complete. :)

Update..

Well things have been AWESOME. Of course. :) I have been a little sick and a lot tired lately. But I have just been relaxing and acting all cool. So last weekend was the best ever. Well not the best ever but it was pretty great! Well it all starts last Wednesday. I went and had my last meeting with my bishop. Since then I have been thee HAPPIESt girl evvverr. :) On Friday Lynden and I went out to dinner and then watched 'The Lucky One.' Which I thought was such a good movie. Mostly probably because Zac Efron is so freakin' hott in it! :) Then Saturday Lyn and I went to his hometown of Tropic, Utah which I love. :) We visited some of his family, unpacked some of his things, then went on a fourwheeler ride. We rode out to somewhere and went shooting. We shot his gun which does have a little bit of a kick haha. My arm could definitely tell you that! After that we drove the fourwheeler to Bryce Canyon. We hiked up and back down the whole thing. It was such a beautful day and the weather was PERFECT. :D On Sunday I went to church and then Lynden picked me up and we headed to St.George for Kami and Maleena's birthday party. It was so great seeing all the family and my dad told me some most excellent news that I am not going to share just yet! But I am excited for it to say the least! :D This week I have not done anything except eat, sleep and watch movies. Which I am perfectly okay with. Though I know I should be productive. Well that is what's new for now. :)

Loooove

This song has been stuck in my head for a good solid six days now. But I just read the lyrics and i loved them. And well i just adore love. :) It makes me happy! So here are the lyrics...

And I would do anything for love,

I'd run right into hell and back.

I would do anything for love,

I'll never lie to you and that's a fact.

But I'll never forget the way you feel right now, oh no, no way.

And I would do anything for love,

Oh I would do anything for love,

I would do anything for love,

But I won't do that,

No I won't do that.

And some days it don't come easy,

And some days it don't come hard,

Some days it don't come at all, and these are the days that never end.

And some nights you're breathing fire.

And some nights you're carved in ice.

Some nights you're like nothing I've ever seen before or will again.

And maybe I'm crazy.

Oh it's crazy and it's true.

I know you can save me, no one else can save me now but you.

As long as the planets are turning.

As long as the stars are burning.

As long as your dreams are coming true, you'd better believe it!

That I would do anything for love,

And I'll be there till the final act.

And I would do anything for love,

And I'll take the vow and seal a pact.

But I'll never forgive myself if we don't go all the way, tonight.

And I would do anything for love,

But I won't do that.

No, I won't do that!

I would do anything for love,

Anything you've been dreaming of,

But I just won't do that.

[x2]

[Solo]

And some days I pray for silence,

And some days I pray for soul,

Some days I just pray to the god of sex and drugs and rock 'n' roll!

And maybe I'm lonely,

That's all I'm qualified to be.

There's just one and only, one and only promise I can keep.

As long as the wheels are turning.

As long as the fires are burning.

As long as your prayers are coming true, you'd better believe it!

That I would do anything for love,

And you know it's true and that's a fact.

I would do anything for love,

And there'll never be no turning back.

But I'll never do it better than I do it with you, so long, so long.

And I would do anything for love,

Oh, I would do anything for love,

I would do anything for love,

But I won't do that.

No, no, no, I won't do.....

I would do anything for love.

Anything you've been dreaming of.

But I just won't do that!

[x3]

But I'll never stop dreaming of you,

Every night of my life.

No way.

And I would do anything for love.

But I won't do that.

No I won't do that.

[Girl]

Will you raise me up, will you help me down?

Will you get me right out of this God forsaken town?

Will you make it all a little less cold?

[Boy]

I can do that. Oh I can do that.

[Girl]

Will you cater to every fantasy I've got?

Will you hose me down with holy water, if I get too hot? Hot!

Will you take me places I've never known?

[Boy]

Now I can do that! Oh oh now, I can do that!

[Girl]

After awhile you'll forget everything.

It was a brief interlude

And a midsummer night's fling,

And you'll see that it's time to move on.

[Boy]

I won't do that. I won't do that.

[Girl}

I know the territory, I've been around,

It'll all turn to dust and will all fall down,

Sooner or later, you'll be screwing around.

[Boy]

I won't do that. No, I won't do that.

Anything for love,

Oh, I would do anything for love,

I would do anything for love,

But I won't do that.

No, I won't do that.

Story.

I don't usually tell stories like this but this story has came back into my mind at the least once a day since it happened. So here it is..

It was a Sunday morning and I was driving with my two best friends to Mesquite from Cedar. We were running late for my cousins baby blessing. Lynden and I took Larena to her home and then drove back out to Beaver Dam for the blessing. By the time we got there we were a good fifteen minutes late and had missed the blessing. We got there in time for the sacrament. Not right in time though.. we had to sit outside in the foyer. There was an old lady sitting across the hall just starring at us the whole time and I was pretty scared. Old people have been scarring me lately and i'm not sure why because I usually love them. But old people aren't the point of this. So, we were sitting there and I was just thinking about everything that I could jam into my little brain but my mind kept taking me back to this one thought. The thought was; "I want to see my family." 

So anyone who really knows me knows that I LOVE my family. They are my best friends and I would do anything for them. 

Well it so happens that all my brothers and sisters and in-laws and nieces and nephews were all inside the meeting already. I wanted to see them SO bad. I'm not exactly sure why. I wanted to see my nephews and nieces making silly faces. I wanted to see my parents looking at all their kids and grandchildren and just having the biggest smiles on their faces. I wanted to make jokes with my brothers and sisters. I wanted to know what they were doing. I wanted to be in that meeting soooo bad. I wanted more than anything to be with them at that moment. I started to cry. (Yes, I am aware that I am such a baby lately.) 

My mind started thinking a lot. I thought "I want to go in there but I can't." "Maybe one of them will come out here to go the bathroom and I will get to see them." "I just want to see them." Thoughts like this kept coming and coming. I was sad. I hated feeling so distant. I hated it so much.

Then I thought.....

 This is a ton like eternal life. What if I am the only one in my family to not able to make it to the Celestial Kingdom. What if they can only see me? What if they didn't wanna see me? What if this is how it feels. I know that if it was then I would feel like that. What if I couldn't see or talk to them all I want? And whenever I want? My thoughts were endless.

Right then I decided for the first time in my life that I would do whatever it takes to get there. I will go to the Celestial Kingdom. And I will love it. :) The end.

I know I just posted like a couple hours ago BUT here I go again. :)

My life is great.

I say it all the time. And I will keep saying it.

Life def. has it's downs but my life has been VERY up lately!

It's not because I am rollin in the dough. 

It's not because I am getting married.

It's not because I have the best job.

It's not because I don't get tempted by Satan.

IT IS because I make the best with what I have.

I try to atleast.

It is not always easy but if you are positive then WA-LA...

Wonderful.

Life can be so great if you just let it be.

So I want to list what I am most thankful for right now..

-A job: I may hate it at times because my boss is the she-devil. I'm not even kidding BUT I do have a job and I am not poor or homeless or poor and homeless. And that is ALWAYS a plus. :) Also, my co-workers are pretty much the bomb. Really. They are some of the coolest people I have ever met. And they are all so nice!

-My family: I know everyone thinks that their family is the best and kuddos to that! I think that my family is the best family for me. And they are. They are hilarious. No matter what they say, it is awesome. They are all so caring, loving, sweet, kind, honest and just GREAT. Two parents, nine siblings, six in-laws, and an aunt to seven. Which will soon be an aunt to TEN. <3  I am so lucky. So soooo lucky! 

-My boyfriend: Oh this kid. We have had our share of ups and downs. I really don't know what I would do without him. We are so much alike sometimes that it scares me. Then other times we are so different that I don't know how we like each other haha. He is the sweetest person and does SOOOO much for me. And of course he has to be a little bit crazy to put up with what he calls my "shananagins." He can make me laugh for days and makes me smile like no one else can. And he gives me sweet fun little butterflies. He is so lovely. :)) 

-My best friends: They are all so great and I don't know how I get surrounded by such amazing people but let me tell you, I LOVE IT. Each one is so different but so awesome. They are all hilarious. They are all pretty and cute. They are all just what I need. They are all the greatest examples and blessings. They all teach me so much. 

-My church: I don't know if I can say it is my church. But I love it so much that heck.. I wish I owned it. I love that I was born and raised in the church. I love the love of the church. I love that I can be with my family forever and someday get married in the temple. I love that the church helps me to be a happy person. I love just everything about the church! Unless it is at nine am. ;) hahaha. I have such a huge testimony that The Church Of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints IS the true church. There is no doubt in my mind.

-My talents: I am so thankful that everyone has their own little special talents. Even though I am not sure what mine are yet. I love them. I love that they make me unique. It makes me happy to know that I will know my talents someday and will hopefully use them and become a great person!

-Love: This is one thing that has REALLY been on my mind lately. I am SO blessed and thankful for this. I know I am loved and I love it. I love love. It is just a great thing. Everybody loves to be loved. I am grateful that I have the blessing to know that I am loved. I am grateful that I know that EVERY single person is loved by somebody. That makes me so happy. People in love makes me happy. :)

I seem to just be rambling on now. :) But I am VERY thankful for my life and every person in it. From great friends to not so great friends. I have learned from everyone. I am so happy with my life and I am blessed beyond measure.. I LOVE IT.

It's dat new new. :)

SOOOO... GUESS WHAT?!

My camera came today and it rocks. 

I'm sad I can't take a zillion pictures because I only have fifty pictures worth of film..

So i limited myself to three pictures today.

That was hard. 

Buuuutt, i love it!

The pictures print right out of the camera which i think is the most awesome thing ever.

I know, I get excited over the littlest things!

But here are the pictures from today which don't look very good because I had to take a picture of the pictures on my very crappy phone camera! :) 

You probably have no idea how in love with this camera I am. Nbd.

AHHHHHH. :)

There will probably be a zillion more pictures of pictures to come! 

I am a happy girl.